Friday! Finally

Last day of work!

more importantly first day of FIND!







"You can’t give people pride, but you can provide the kind of understanding that makes people look to their inner strengths and find their own sense of pride."
– Charleszetta Waddles







The purpose of this years Conference is to educate delegates about the origin of Filipino pride, how it relates to the current times, and how we hope it will effect the future. On Saturday, We start off the day with the first session entitled "What we did," a session in which the delegates will learn about historical events and accomplishments that have created the foundation for our Filipino Pride. Our pride will have an even deeper meaning than before. The second session entitled "Who We Are Today" will enable delegates to make a connection with Filipinos who have made great achievements. The goal of this session is to inspire delegates to have a positive feeling of Filipino pride. The final session is "What Does the Future Hold." A self reflection period for delegates to plan goals for their future.



A lot of hard work has been put into this conference! I'm excited to see how everything turns out!

Waffles

Go to Bonte. AMAZING <3

I got a waffle with banana.

its the coldstone of WAFFLES

the bananas were INSIDE.

amazing.

love is like.

Yesterday, I was having quite the conversation with a very good friend of mine. We talked about how love is so easy to hate, miss, momentarily forget, etc etc, and how love is so easy to love.

No matter how much a girl will try to convince herself and everyone around her that she is perfectly happy without a significant other, I quote my fellow lovetrashing/longing guru friend, “at the end of the night it always catches up to them like hm just me in my bed. Always just me in bed.” Although us girls are perfectly capable of being happy when single, there will always be that void that can’t be satisfied simply with a tub of Ben&Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream.

Feeling gloomy from being single is like a dormant disease. For days, weeks maybe even months at a time I would feel fine. Everything seems normal, and I’m happy then all of a sudden its like- BAM I am single! You mope like a baby, its all you think about. You catch yourself thinking about all the good moments in past relationships when it used to be SO easy to remember the bad. However I have a boy now. Lol So this is just past experience for blog purposes.

That makes me sound kinda hypocritical. But that’s how everyone is. They will talk about how much relationships suck, and boys suck, and there is no point for a relationship… but seriously… its in our nature to find our match.


In high school I had a horrible boyfriend. But I was naive and young and I fell for him. I thought I was in love. Stupid I know. But I’ve learned from this experience. I was talking about this with boy and I explained…
My ex was crazy. He was controlling- if he didn’t like what I wore I was told to change, if we wanted something but was to lazy to get up I had to get it even if it was on the other side of the house, he doesn’t like it when people sing, so I wasn’t allowed to sing along to the radio. A lot of stupid things that I shouldn’t have been around to experience. He was super over protective and jealous and would read my text messages with out asking. We fought everyday about big and little things but I stuck around for 8 months (officially I don’t know how much longer unofficially).

When I was done talking about it. Boy turned to me, his face twisted with confusion, “You were happy with someone like that??”

I thought I was, but, No I was not happy. It was a bad year for me. Senior year could have been better.
However I know what I DON’T want in a relationship now. But in all honesty, since something like that happened to me, I’m glad it happened early on. I know exactly what to stay away from in the future as opposed to being seriously involved with someone like that when I’m older and looking to settle down.

Love is the disease and love is the drug.

8 mile

greg: do u have some free time?
me: right now
yeaa i think i can manage some
greg: would it be too bold
to suggest a rap battle?

I have known this kid since...7th grade.
He is the whitest of the white.

greg: ok
ok
yo
yo
yo
ok


So apparently its spring? I'm still wearing my winter coat :(

spam

Jesus christ 3rd post of the day. Sorry but try to keep up beeyotch.

Actually this is just a video.




the video is messed up too. Idk how to fix it :(

I am in no way shape or form a performer. I just do this stuff for fun with my friends.

gchat, binders, and sex

I want to meet the person who came up with gchat&aim.

&& Make love to that person.

If it wasn't for you.. I would not make it through the work day.

I have approximately a half hour till I complete my work day. And I'm gonna write as opposed to stuffing binders (which I have been doing all week).

This job=papercuts :(

I would really like to enjoy the weather.

Also, can someone... anyone... tell me how to get a video from the internet up!? Haha I thought i knew how. Apparently not.

ANYWAY. I had a bizzare AIM conversation today with a complete stranger.
It's quite long. I'll break it down quick and easy.

This person IMs me and asks who I am because my sn showed up on his buddy list.
I figure maybe its an old friend... I can't think of any other reason as to who would have my sn so I say my name is Ally Hardy.

Well I was wrong and he doesn't know who I am. Hahaha. I have no idea who he is either.

HE STARTS ASKING ME FOR A PICTURE!?!?
Since he already knows my name I told him to just check facebook or something.
Of course he doesn't have one.
Then he insists on sending me a picture... So i give him an old email address. One I never use anymore.
he says "alright sent a picture. its kind of shirtless though..which i admit to be lame lol"
Wtf. I don't even bother opening the picture, I just took a quick glance at the thumbnail and I tell him that I still dont know him.

Oh my god. This kid still wants to carry on a conversation.
He's asking me what I like to do for fun, what I love, what I hate, where I work.

THEN. He asks....
"have a boyfriend or singleeeee?"

I reply...
"in the middle"

He tells me he's been single for a month...
Shit gets weirder...

person: weird not having sex though haha after 2 years of steady sex but whatever! thats an adjustment lol
me: hahaha im sure you'll be able to manage
person: haha i hope so!
me: hahaa
person: lol well at least youll be entering the days of steady sex. at least one of us will survive ally lol
me: i guess i should speak for myself then haha
person: lol what?
me: expression. meaning i cant really say whether or not you'll make it
person: lol well i hope i dont die from a lack of sex. i dont think the penis ACTUALLY falls off haha
me: hopefully you'll be fine. fingers crossed

seriously?
Conversation OVER.

Dad+facebook=WTF!?!?!

My dad has a facebook. This is wrong.
I have nothing else to say

Happy St. Patricks day (& edit)

"Everyone is Irish on St. Patricks Day"

Ok.. I AM Irish but uh... I've realized that I really don't know anything about being Irish. Not that he really celebrates it since Irish isn't a minority... anymore.

When the Irish first came to America they were considered a minority and scoffed at. They were considered dirty and were looked down on. The stereotype of "being an alcoholic" was more of a reality back then... consider it an outlet. Over time however, Americans accepted the Irish basically because they looked similar. Since when did "being an alcoholic" become an accepted joke among Americans. As long as you have light skin alcoholism isn't an issue?

Now, Filipinos. Do you think they will ever be "absorbed"? I know that we all aim for equality, but I'm scared that we will one day completely lose whats left of our culture. Then again, filipinos don't have blonde hair and blue eyes (naturally).

I say "they" because I don't really know where I fit in. According to my Filipino friends I am the "white one" and to my caucasian friends I am "the asian one." Yes... I was the token asian in high school.

Anyway with FIND coming up I'm very excited to learn more about my Filipino history.

I know... people will probably read this and say
"What the fuck Ally... you LOOK white... Like really? Do you REALLY face difficulties??"
(That has in fact been said to me)
Shut the hell up, I've dealt with shit too.


Love

"That chinese mother fucker"
(A term coined by a very NICE person when referring to me.)
(I lied he's a douche who doesn't like me because I'm half Filipino)

Poor excuse of an Irish girl
I barely drink hahaha.
And this is what happens
Regardless... Happy St. Patricks Day

Break your phone & start fresh.

So. I broke my phone. Horribly. Like... cracked screen couldn't see a damn thing horribly. On Saturday I went to Verizon and when I got a replacement I learned that I had lost eveyrthing on my phone. (aside from phone numbers) I was not upset about losing my ringtones, or random pictures. However, I was crushed when the "No Videos Saved" alert basically slapped me in the face. I had lost all my videos from my old job.

Refer to an older post from February "Full Time Jobs Suck" to see how much that job meant to me, and how much those kids still mean to me.

Those videos were the last form of interaction I have with those kids. The kids I spent every day after school with my senior year of high school, and basically everyday in the Summer of my senior year AND freshman year or college.

I spent my LAST summer break ever working with children with autism and I do not regret one moment of it.

Its been so long since I've been able to go back and visit. Those videos meant so much to me.

One video in particular
My buddy Brandon was holding both my hands in his and singing "I wanna hold your hand" by the beatles.

This video genuinely made me happy no matter how bad my day went.

NOW my phone is a blank slate. Completey empty and ready for new pictures and videos.

oh dear..

I think I am singing on Ben's radio show this Sunday. Hahahaha... interesting.

Honestly. I don't know where this came from. I never everererrr sang in high school. In fact, when my high school friend came to visit a few weeks ago, chris was just fooling around with the guitar and I was singing a bit and she goes;
"Ally where did this voice come from!? I didn't know"
I've known this girl since like... 8th grade.
So... tune into Bens show this Sunday. I actually don't know anything else about it... like what station or what time. I guess i'll update that later.

I don't really have any songs either.
Matt White- "love" is probs a yes
Sara Bareilles- "Vegas" is actually probably a no.. haha i always mess up
uh. help.

If i were a _____. I think I could understand.

I'm too scared to sing "boy" its so loud and high. :( :( :(


My number one peeve is probably when people use the phrase “OH I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL” in a serious conversation. Then they proceed to try to relate some stupid ass story that may have some relation, but not EXACT relation... soooo just stfu. My friends, if someone is going through a difficult situation, that is probably the worst possible time to one-up them.Whenever someone says that I want to end the conversation then and there. And from then on, I know that I will never want to talk to that person about something bothering me again. Haha. Harsh, but I dun giiiive a shiet.

ANWAY.

Yesterday was Fisdu’s Halo Halo night. Put that on the list of food I don’t like. It also bothers me when people keep shoving spoonfuls of Halo Halo in my face.

“Try it Ally!”
“I have, I don’t like it”
“Are you sure? Just try it”

Uh.. Yes, I am sure. Ugh annoying!

We also did karaoke. I am not capable of scoring higher than an 80.

Staple this motha fucka

So today at work, while I was playing with the mechanical stapler (coolest office supply ever) I came to realize that I haven't blogged in a day. Then I realized that I needed to pee.



I remember when there was no you
My sky was gray when it should have been blue
So many struggles livin day to day
No where to run, just so I could get away

I remember when I saw you face
The sun came out and brightened up the whole place
My heart is racin’ troubles erased and
Boy you got me sayin

Get a grip, don’t trip
Too late I’ve fallen baby
You make it hard to cry
Can’t help but smile
I feel the sparks when we meet eye to eye
Got my stomach filled with butterflies

I wish I could have a snow day

“There’s too many things I haven’t done yet, too many sunsets I haven’t seen”- Sara Bareilles

I kinda love her. No lesbo?

I love the snow. I wish I wasn’t cooped up in my little cubicle in the corner of the office. I’m a child at heart and sitting at this desk all day just isn’t for me.

Im slowly going crazy and playing with clips. wtf man.

So lately, whenever I happen to meet someone at a party they always say "Find me on Facebook." And its not the kind of comment where they are like blahblahblah find me on facebook so I never have to talk to you again... instead they find ME on facebook and message me nonstop. That happened twice this weekend, and maybe 3 times last weekend. Not to toot my own horn- since none of them were attractive and I really couldn't care less. But I wonder, what goes through their minds when they say that? Do they think it's honestly a good idea? What happened to asking for a number? Not that I wanted to give it, I'm just wondering... Since when has facebook become the way to pick up girls? Facebook is what sparks relationships now? Gross.

I'm just trying to keep in touch with friends, not find the love of my life through facebook