I'm a zero

I can't even count the number of times I started to blog but ended up deleting my entry half way through.

I feel so alone right now.
I'm home for a few days and I only have an interest in seeing a few people.
I try so hard to fill the voids with other people when those select few are busy
I've been alone almost every night
physically there are people around me
but I feel sooo alone.

I woke up at 4pm today after I stayed up all night miserable
No texts and no calls