How do you solve a problem you feel will never go away? If you truly believe that you are headed somewhere negative, do you keep on pursuing? I wasn't this negative before, but now I can see where I might be headed. I've conditioned myself to just keep quiet and it sucks.

God I really need a personal journal.
At the same time... I only think to blog when some thing bad happens (hence why my blog is empty)
do I really want to hold on to those memories like that?